Since Valentines is Sunday, I figured I'd do a Valentines-themed Truthful Tuesday:
I really, really dislike Valentines Day. Why? Because I have to share that day with everyone. What's the problem with that? Because it's my birthday!
At first it was kinda fun when I was a kid because it would always be pink and red hearts themed birthday and that's cool for a girl. But then, as I got older, and my friends got boyfriends, it started not to be cool anymore to have a Valentines birthday. No one cares about my birthday because they are too caught up in themselves and what wonderful thing they are going to get for/from their significant other and what romatic stuff they will be doing. Plus, I can't even go out to eat on my birthday and celebrate because everyone else has reservations and is out to eat too. I will have no less than a 2 hour wait to go eat ON MY BIRTHDAY!
Bitter? Not at all. What makes you think that?
Well, it also stinks because Daniel is not a big believer in Valentines Day either. He calls it Hallmark 1800Flowers Hersey Day. He thinks it's just a big, made-up holiday for those companies to go from the red to the black. But, as a girl....I want the "cheesiness" sometimes. I want a romantic day and it's just made 100X worse because it's my birthday too. I went through a spell where I didn't even want to buy Valentines cards and candy for anyone, including my significant other because I was sooo selfish about it being my birthday. I'm not THAT selfish anymore. I'll buy valentines cards for the kids I work with and co-workers and a few little items for Daniel. But is it because I at least want some kind of recognition? I don't know.
Well, the past couple of birthdays have completely stunk. I've done nothing for my birthday. I started feeling that this birthday would be the same or even worse because it's a big birthday....the big 3-0. Ugh! I don't want to turn 30 and I certainly don't want to turn 30 by myself. I really just wanna curl up in a ball and hibernate. This stems sort of, feeling like a complete loser, when trying to have parties at my house and hosting other get togethers at church. They all seem to bust and fail because hardly anyone shows up. I actually had attempted several things in which NO one showed up. I was feeling like a total failure and a loser until 2 of my friends and former co-workers at Children's Hospital told me they wanted to throw me a birthday party. I was completely floored and wanted to start crying. I still do almost cry everytime I think about it. I can't believe that they would want to do that for me! I hope people show up, but if they don't, I know that those 2 are good friends and will have a great time with them anyway.
Won't you join me for my birthday party?!